Never Give Up, Never Lose Hope

Get up. It was 11:15 p.m. on a Wednesday night and I was attempting to fall asleep. But my eyes would not shut. I stared up at the ceiling and heard my intuition say it again. Get up. About 15 minutes prior to this moment my husband had turned off the TV. His beloved Chicago Cubs had blown their lead in Game 7 of the World Series and he couldn’t stand to possibly see them lose in the bottom of the ninth. I had been hiding in the bedroom since the bottom of the 8th inning, as I couldn’t stand […]

Failure & Success

My last post, “It’s Not All for Nothing,” was “oddly prophetic,” my husband told me. Indeed, because I did not achieve my sub-4 marathon goal time, nor did I even PR. At first my failure did not bother me. I still crossed the finish line smiling because I loved the marathon. There were moments on the course where I looked up at the skyline and thought “Wow, this is it, I am running the Chicago Marathon.” I was surrounded by runners and spectators the entire 26 miles. And perhaps the biggest thrill was getting that medal and knowing I had […]

It’s not all for nothing

Two weeks from now, at the exact time I’m writing this, I will be in the very early miles of the Chicago Marathon. This thought is both exhilarating and nauseating. I’ve been looking forward to running this marathon since I decided to start running marathons. I was thrilled when I was able to secure my spot at the starting line back in April through the race’s lottery system and I started training in early June. I’ve been mentally and physically preparing for this for a long time. But it’s also brought a tidal wave of nerves — nerves I haven’t […]

Choose Alignment Over Fear

What if the decisions you’ve made have been rooted in fear? I’m not really sure where the question came from and why it popped into my head while I was driving home from work. Perhaps it had been there for a long time, lurking somewhere deep in my subconscious, just waiting for the right moment to slap me upside my head and force me to face reality. Apparently that moment was sometime after 5:30 p.m. while heading eastbound on I-94. I suppose the question came up because I already knew the answer — yes, I’ve made a lot of decisions […]

Trust Your Plan

This feels too easy, I should be running faster. Two minutes for a rest break? That’s too much time. Should I do some pushups or planks while I’m waiting? These were the thoughts running through my head during a workout a few weeks ago. I’m currently training for the Chicago Marathon, my third 26.2 and first World Major, and I’m determined to set a new PR and break through the 4-hour wall — a goal that requires shaving almost 10 minutes off my current PR of 4:09:57. While I’m confident it’s doable, I know that kind of time improvement won’t […]

Twenty Seven

Today is my last day as a 26-year-old. I will never experience this age ever again. By tomorrow morning at approximately 8:20 a.m., I will officially be 27. Birthdays shouldn’t feel like a surprise. We know exactly when they are. It’s one of the few events we can mark on our calendars every year for eternity. And yet, each one seems to sneak up on me. I get wrapped up in the busyness of life and the days go by quickly. Summer cools into fall, fall loses its beauty to winter, winter hangs around for much too long, then spring […]

A Very Good Place to Start

As Julie Andrews famously sang, “Let’s start at the very beginning. A very good place to start.” I’ve attempted this start many times over many months. Normally the start is easy for me. A little too easy. I get swept up in the excitement of starting a new journey. Of taking that leap in pursuing a new path. I have a vision in my head of what I want to happen and I’m ready to roll. But then something changes. What felt so easy and fun starts to feel like a chore. My path and progress doesn’t look the way […]